Humility

            To be taken out of an area where I can easily do things on my own, instead of relying on God (which I have to sadly admit that that is what I have been doing for the last year or so), to being put into an area where the only option I have is total reliance on God is very humbling.  Back in America, mainly mc, I have been living very comfortably.  Don’t get me wrong, there where and are plenty of chances to allow God to take over my life in everything, I just failed to take any of those chances.  In doing so I fell into a pit that left me far from God’s voice and direction.  At this point I was sitting in a position where my day to day life consisted of doing everything on my own.  I might have done some good during this time, but I could have been doing something great because with man it might look good, but with God it is great- you could say it is God sized!!!  By His grace thought, He allowed me to hear this one call from Him- Africa.  I have said all this to tell you that being humbled by God is probably one of the best gifts if not the best I have received from God.

              Here in Africa I don’t have the liberty of making my own decisions.  I can’t even go to sleep or wake up on my own.  Every second I’ve been here God has revealed to me how useless I am without Him.  By His grace, He has revealed to me how selfish I have been living the past year or so in my comfort.  He also revealed to me how much joy I was missing out with every second I chose comfort over Him!!  Even though being here in Africa has been, at times, tough, it has been so rewarding- if not to others, it has been to me.  Waking up in His presence and humbly coming before Him asking Him for strength daily is not only humbling, but as well as relieving.  I say this because I wake up every day knowing that if the Lord doesn’t show up not only will I look very dumb, but peoples lives might be lost( eternally) because I could mess up something on my own.  Basically God is doing some amazing stuff here in Africa, not only in our team’s lives, not only in the Botswana’s lives, but also in my life.  God is good!!!